So today on this date…...I am at a very high weight……..a big whopping undesirable 228! That’s just simply freaking great! lol….I thought I would share the dreadful news in a poetic type of way (that is just the nerd in me).So,.....yeah…...you are probably wondering, “are you kidding me?!!!!”, and the answer to that question is no. A big NO! I once was fat, and then I was not, and now I have looped back to fat again! How do I feel about that? I feel sick of being fat again! That is how I feel. How did I go from 228 to a steady 150 to 228 again? Well, life happened! I traveled to Korea and gained some poundage while I was there, came back to America to then struggle with wanting to eat all the delicious American food that I had been missing. I stopped counting calories and got a night job that made me a night person that liked to sleep all day before work and eat and drink booze after work. My weight kept creeping up and I totally knew it but would try to “diet” and then say forget it. I even rejoined Weight Watchers and gave it a go. This time around, I did not have enough motivation for the plan. I then suffered from a back injury due to type of work I was doing and how my body was not used to the stress (not to mention the extra pounds). So at this point in time, I am still under 200 pounds. Well, the back injury put me out of work ( my work was a physical job, so if you can’t be physical, then you can’t work...simple...lol), and that is when I became less active and depressed about being unemployed, and I packed on the last 28 pounds. All of this happened in about a 2 year time frame, give or take a few months. This leaves me at today. 228….228….228…….I keep typing that number so that I will let it sink in that this is totally not where I want to be. I never thought I would be here again but I am. So I have 2 choices here: I can stay depressed about it, be ashamed crawl in a hole, and continue to self medicate my mental pain with more food, or I can suck it up and accept the challenge that my life has become. You know what??? I’m going to take that second option and tell this weight to get the hell off me...lol! I am starting this weight loss journey all over again (the journey never ended or never ends anyway), and I am going to kick and beat the crap out of fat and leave it on life support to rot and wish it would just die!!!!! lol...enough violence from me. This time around, I’m doing things a bit different. I refuse to be a slave to the calorie count lifestyle, and so I am going to instead work on food choices and portion control more. I have found that I am a person that has severe portion distortion, and always have. I want to change that. I also want to walk more.I have so many goals and things I want to work on. I know that I am going to experience judgement and dislike from some people that followed me on my journey before (some may be disappointed that I am fat again), but you know what??? It is not about anyone else…...this is about me! I am here to share with those people that want to share this journey with me and hopefully we can all motivate and help each other with our weight loss goals ^^. Stay tuned for my “game plan” for this journey to fit.
Sunday, March 6, 2016
Where have I Been?
3/6/2016
So today on this date…...I am at a very high weight……..a big whopping undesirable 228! That’s just simply freaking great! lol….I thought I would share the dreadful news in a poetic type of way (that is just the nerd in me).So,.....yeah…...you are probably wondering, “are you kidding me?!!!!”, and the answer to that question is no. A big NO! I once was fat, and then I was not, and now I have looped back to fat again! How do I feel about that? I feel sick of being fat again! That is how I feel. How did I go from 228 to a steady 150 to 228 again? Well, life happened! I traveled to Korea and gained some poundage while I was there, came back to America to then struggle with wanting to eat all the delicious American food that I had been missing. I stopped counting calories and got a night job that made me a night person that liked to sleep all day before work and eat and drink booze after work. My weight kept creeping up and I totally knew it but would try to “diet” and then say forget it. I even rejoined Weight Watchers and gave it a go. This time around, I did not have enough motivation for the plan. I then suffered from a back injury due to type of work I was doing and how my body was not used to the stress (not to mention the extra pounds). So at this point in time, I am still under 200 pounds. Well, the back injury put me out of work ( my work was a physical job, so if you can’t be physical, then you can’t work...simple...lol), and that is when I became less active and depressed about being unemployed, and I packed on the last 28 pounds. All of this happened in about a 2 year time frame, give or take a few months. This leaves me at today. 228….228….228…….I keep typing that number so that I will let it sink in that this is totally not where I want to be. I never thought I would be here again but I am. So I have 2 choices here: I can stay depressed about it, be ashamed crawl in a hole, and continue to self medicate my mental pain with more food, or I can suck it up and accept the challenge that my life has become. You know what??? I’m going to take that second option and tell this weight to get the hell off me...lol! I am starting this weight loss journey all over again (the journey never ended or never ends anyway), and I am going to kick and beat the crap out of fat and leave it on life support to rot and wish it would just die!!!!! lol...enough violence from me. This time around, I’m doing things a bit different. I refuse to be a slave to the calorie count lifestyle, and so I am going to instead work on food choices and portion control more. I have found that I am a person that has severe portion distortion, and always have. I want to change that. I also want to walk more.I have so many goals and things I want to work on. I know that I am going to experience judgement and dislike from some people that followed me on my journey before (some may be disappointed that I am fat again), but you know what??? It is not about anyone else…...this is about me! I am here to share with those people that want to share this journey with me and hopefully we can all motivate and help each other with our weight loss goals ^^. Stay tuned for my “game plan” for this journey to fit.
So today on this date…...I am at a very high weight……..a big whopping undesirable 228! That’s just simply freaking great! lol….I thought I would share the dreadful news in a poetic type of way (that is just the nerd in me).So,.....yeah…...you are probably wondering, “are you kidding me?!!!!”, and the answer to that question is no. A big NO! I once was fat, and then I was not, and now I have looped back to fat again! How do I feel about that? I feel sick of being fat again! That is how I feel. How did I go from 228 to a steady 150 to 228 again? Well, life happened! I traveled to Korea and gained some poundage while I was there, came back to America to then struggle with wanting to eat all the delicious American food that I had been missing. I stopped counting calories and got a night job that made me a night person that liked to sleep all day before work and eat and drink booze after work. My weight kept creeping up and I totally knew it but would try to “diet” and then say forget it. I even rejoined Weight Watchers and gave it a go. This time around, I did not have enough motivation for the plan. I then suffered from a back injury due to type of work I was doing and how my body was not used to the stress (not to mention the extra pounds). So at this point in time, I am still under 200 pounds. Well, the back injury put me out of work ( my work was a physical job, so if you can’t be physical, then you can’t work...simple...lol), and that is when I became less active and depressed about being unemployed, and I packed on the last 28 pounds. All of this happened in about a 2 year time frame, give or take a few months. This leaves me at today. 228….228….228…….I keep typing that number so that I will let it sink in that this is totally not where I want to be. I never thought I would be here again but I am. So I have 2 choices here: I can stay depressed about it, be ashamed crawl in a hole, and continue to self medicate my mental pain with more food, or I can suck it up and accept the challenge that my life has become. You know what??? I’m going to take that second option and tell this weight to get the hell off me...lol! I am starting this weight loss journey all over again (the journey never ended or never ends anyway), and I am going to kick and beat the crap out of fat and leave it on life support to rot and wish it would just die!!!!! lol...enough violence from me. This time around, I’m doing things a bit different. I refuse to be a slave to the calorie count lifestyle, and so I am going to instead work on food choices and portion control more. I have found that I am a person that has severe portion distortion, and always have. I want to change that. I also want to walk more.I have so many goals and things I want to work on. I know that I am going to experience judgement and dislike from some people that followed me on my journey before (some may be disappointed that I am fat again), but you know what??? It is not about anyone else…...this is about me! I am here to share with those people that want to share this journey with me and hopefully we can all motivate and help each other with our weight loss goals ^^. Stay tuned for my “game plan” for this journey to fit.
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